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Sunday, November 30, 2008

updated!!

whoaaa finally i update this nonsense thing....
hahaha actually quite lazy la... ~kemalasan melanda~ huhu =p
so.... what should i write...?
hhmm... let start with the BBQ...
wahahha had great time with that bunch of crap... =p
really enjoy myself... thanks guys..
we start with palying volleyball...
haha my team lost all the three sets... wink2 stendek... (^_^)
after having the BBQ that night, we take a walk along the beach...
huuuu so refreshing... we looked at the shining stars... Lord The Almighty!!
but one thing that i really really really really again...
haha that i really enjoy was that damn swimming pool... whooaaa!!!! (^_^)
cant avoid myself from being seduce by the pool... huhu =)
long time since the last time i swim... but that night actually.. illegally!!
hahahaha im so sorry Mr. Owner of The Pool... ehehehe =p
I got the punishment edi... i guess... huhu~
FLU!!!! waaaa hate it...
sob..sob.. =(
hhmmm... currently I dont know what my heart feels....
I cant understand what it trying to say... to express... haiz (-_-)
whats wrong with u my sweet heart...
hhmm....
wait.. just wait my dear heart....

we face it together ok..?
I know we can do it...
Look at the title of this blog...
AKU BUKAN LELAKI YANG TEWAS is it?
so dont give up...
chayok!!! =)

Wednesday, November 26, 2008

L.O.V.E. ?



What can the love in my soul be compared to another wonderful soul which is so far and yet so close of myself?
What can this symbiosis between
two souls can be?
What can love be when you feel you cannot sleep at night...

that every drop of dew becomes a crystal in your heart...

when every breeze of wind has magical meanings?

What can love be when you feel that you want nothing more in this world that to be with the soul you love?
But what can love be in other transcendental realities?
What about our souls?

Are our souls a waterfall..?

a true Niagara or a smile..?

a flirt of an angel..?

Are our souls a mere mood of a fairy or a lightening in a summer rain?

Our souls could be all of this and much more.
But what really happens in that transcendental reality when we feel we are truly in love, that we love so much that it hurts?

That the air in the room is unbreathable..

that the sentimental, spiritual or physical distances kill us?
What happens when dawn find us sadder than ever, looking for an excuse or an argument for the person we love so much, our Great Love ?
What are all these?
What are the looks lost in the desert horizons of unfulfillment...
or those in the eyes that deeply loose each other in the others inside the souls?
We think about it..
Sing about it..
Dream about it..
and loose sleep worrying about it...
When we don't know we have it.. we search for it...
When we discover it...
we don't know what to do with it...
When we have it... we fear loosing it...
It is the constant source of pleasure and pain...
But we don't know which it will be from one moment to the next...
It is a short word...
easy to spell...
difficult to define...
and IMPOSSIBLE to live without...


p/s : I hope the answer will change dear (-_-)


lalala~

wink2 (^_^)
ak tgh hepi ni... hahahauhuahauhau dunno how 2 express...
nk menjerit melalak pn ada.... =p
confused..?
haha let me stoly moly 2 u...
actly i called her juz now (phone call ok..) hehe~
im afraid at first... afraid she wont answer my call...
tuut tuut.. tuut tuut... tuut tuut.. adeh bape kali tuut tuut da... haiz
its a relieve when i heard her sweet voice... (sweet...??) huhu~~ =)
well i dunno wat 2 say.. juz babling2..
hahah cian telinga yg mendengar.. sorry dear.. =p
well our cnversation.. emm nutin much...
she told me sumtin... sumtin dat make me laugh until now...
hahahahahaa wakakkaka~~ (^_^)
no heart feeling dear.. its funny la... cant stop myself.. huhu~
next time u ketok2 la ur bro 2... bia dia reti bwat sndiri.. kes3
we talk..talk.. n talk again...
emm but sumtimes we got silent mode... i think..
got no idea to proceed our talking2 la... huhu~
one thing i noticed from this...
hhmm im very hepi n senang hati when i heard she laugh...
dunno why but... emm but... but.. but tu la... hepi!!
i luv to hear her laugh.. my heart comfortables with dat sound...
huuhu~ hope next time will hear dat again... always... =)

aku sebenarnye da high ni.. waa~~
high dgn bau cat umah... bestnye conteng dinding.. hehe =p
smpai pening2 da...
sorry mak... sorry abah.. ..
mmuuaahh (blog kiss 2 both of u)
huhu~~ (^_^)


anakmu yg noty~~

Monday, November 24, 2008

Tagged!!!

-myself-


pidi
aka kacipcrew tagged me edi... waaaa bad boy!! =p

got nothing to write la baby Firdaus... wakakkakaka~~
5 things that others dont know bout me..??
hhmm let me think... tik..tik..tik.. oh dear!!

10 minutes passed edi...
haiz still dont know what to share...

well i guess babling around is the best... huhu~~
take note k... (^_^)

1) REBELLIOUS

- sumtimes saja i rebel (for the sake of myself)... ngeh3
- seems like i njoy it... haha~

- always againts others decisions or suggestions mayb... (especially someone who i despice)


2) INDEPENDENT

- actually.. im pretend to be.. hahaha~

- maybe because i dont want others to look down on me... huhu~

- independent also to avoid helps from others (especially paren) ... hehe =p

dont want to bother them lol...

3) KOYA

- hehe of coz i am... proud to admit it...

- always control macho.. i guess.. (x macho2 pon.. haha)
- when girls look at me, i start to 'koya'..
wah they like me ea..? i hve da charm..?
(example only maa.. hehe)
- hahaha sgt koya aite.. huhu =p

- well cant avoid it la... would like to.. hehe (^_^)


4) LOVE TO FIGHT AND CREATE TROUBLES
- sorry to say la i like to judge book by its cover... same principe apply to human being.. huhu~
- so thats why la i always fight with outsiders or someone that i knew just for a short times..
( junior?? =p)
- if they stare at me, i will do the same thing...
they are lucky enough if i didnt bother them...

- but sometimes i will have problem with this unknown identity..
i dont mind if they beat me as
long as i feel satisfied..
ahhahaha =)


5) LIAR

- haha beware!!!

- im a big LIAR...

- sometimes i will trick people to fulfill my desires... huhu~ damn aite?

- believe me just for certain2 time only k...

- i always babling eventhough dat crap sounds like serious speech... haha~~

- things easy to say but hard to do aite... hauahuahau~


beep beep.. beep beep!!

oopppsss 1 message recieved... ahahhaha =p

gonna stop 1st... well those above are pieces of me... hope u like it.. haha~
btw forgot to mention there.. emmm
IM GAY!!! wahahahahhahahhaha
wink2~~ (^_^)

You Are My Everything

huhuhuhu~~
have u ever heard bout dis song..?
waa masyuk maa!!!
i oso donnow how i can addict to it...
it suites me... i guess... huhu~~ =p
clik here to download this song...
njoy urself k... (^_^)



Santa Esmerald Lyrics



special request from kacipcrew :
here is da clip...
(http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kfA12OhK8xM)

Sunday, November 23, 2008

Untitled..?

ow gosh!!!
my fren married edi... to b clear.. LAST YEAR !!!
whats on earth!! i knew nothing.... so sad lol...
dis morning she told me... haiz too late maa...
no more kenduri n gulai2...
huhu~~
no idea la... no comment also...
its ur life... u decide la... huhu~
married at 18th...?
hoho no..no..no..!!
my mum will kill me then... aiyak!!
but she will be fine if i gve her grandchild quickly... i guess.. hehe =p
im betting tonight...
hope luck will be at my side...
help me please.. help!! owhhohoho i must win dat fucking fantasy...
cnfident enough!!
lallalaa~~
sick of waiting da result...
hhmm raining again...
waa hope flood will come soon...
hahaha can swim and snorkeling maa...
wakakakkaa (^_^)

Saturday, November 22, 2008

mowning~~

bangun tido je tros stomach ku memaenkn lagunye....
huuuuu sdey tol... pity u my luvly stomach...
its ok.. wait..wait.. i will steal some food for u.. huhu~
owh gosh!! im sure i entered da kitchen.. but... no food!!
what da kitchen on earth is dat...??
waaaa impossible meh....
uhuk2...
so i have 2 show my talent now...
becoming a chef!!
waakakakkakaka can i..?
huhu wait n c....
hhmm only sardin left... sardin pn sardin la bang....
so i cook dat sardin la...
guess wat...
wow salty !! euw !!!

Friday, November 21, 2008

00:00 a.m.

ow..ow...fligth time!!
time to go to dreamsland.... hehe~~
what shud i dream tonight r..??
hhmm let me see....
aha!! i want to dream about heavens...
wanna meet those enchanting angels...
waaa my nose bleed edi....
hahah bad boy !! =)
go 1st r...
c u there!!! daaa~~

Friday!!!

what 2 write ha...?
let me think... hhmm.. hhmm....
well sum1 call me last nyte.... terkezot i!!!
huhuhuhu dont know what she babling bout....
xphm2... hahaha sorry ea... =)
today is Friday!! hhmm....
24 hours in da same room...?
24 hours doing da same thing...?
24 hours look da same faces...?
waaa no...no...no...!!!
i must take a walk....
so decided to ronda2 around da market....
heheh byk marka beb!! baek punya...
astaga!! isk3 pe nk jd ak ni....
ak kn GAY...
huhuhuhu~
quiet hot there.... my shirt all wet...
huhhu cam men hujan plak...
so i went home la.... sleep sleep!!!
hahaah i luv sleeping...
it luvs me too....
waahahahahahhahaha aum2..!!! (^_^)

Thursday, November 20, 2008

lalalala~

dunnow what to write...
huhuhu~
hhmm i guess she cried last night...
what a damn boy i am...
why do i keep hurting girls...?
waaaaa im gay man!!! im gay!!
one more day with boredom conquered me...
haiz no idea what to do... Really!!
hangout..?? ow no no no!!!
rain keep raining... huhuhu i wish it could be snow...
so i can meet my idol, SNOWMAN!! hehe =)
but rain not bad what....
like what she said... i luv to walk in rain coz nobody knows im cying...
huhuhuh bley test ni... ekekkekeke (^_^)
two days without soccer... haiz damn bored!!!
i must sweat... it is a must!! i dont know why but i feel uncomfortable if im not sweating in the evening... i must play or do something to make my sweat... what r..? no idea la...
better i sleep... ngahahahahhaa daaa~~

Wednesday, November 19, 2008

ROCK KAPAK

huhuhu windunye kt Penang...
xsabo2 nk blk sna la... nk g Relau... hehehhe...
hanya laki2 ku saja yg tau....
sshhhh!!!
semenjak dua menjak tiga menjak ni....xtau la wat happen 2 me....
ak da terjebak ngan pengaruh memberku untuk melayan....
Rock Kapak!!! Lagu Rock Kapak beb!!!
waaaa sswai ke ngan jiwaku yg tulus dan murni ni..?
hehehe balun je...
agak menarik...
ni antara lagu2 yg ak layan la...
check it out...click saja klu terasa nk simpan lam harddisk 2... eekekkeke =)

Cinta Untuk Nabila
Dirantai Digelangi Rindu
Mengintai Dari Tirai Kamar
Umpama Mimpi Dalam Mimpi

Dari Sinar Mata
Bila Diri Disayangi

dah2 la 2...
jenuh ak nk buh lagu satu2....
cari la sendiri klu korg berminat...
adios!!! ak nk tido.... hujan2 besh ni....
huhuhuh wakakakkakaka~~ (^_^)

PROSTATE CANCER!!!

When our loved one is diagnosed with cancer, we will want to ensure that he or she receives the very best care and treatments. Also whatever is needed to ensure recovery is carried out quickly and smoothly.

Prostate cancer is a disease in which cancer develops in the prostate, a gland in the male reproductive system. It occurs when cells of the prostate mutate and begin to multiply out of control. These cells may spread (metastasize) from the prostate to other parts of the body, especially the bones and lymph nodes. Prostate cancer may cause pain, difficulty in urinating, erectile dysfunction and other symptoms.

Rates of prostate cancer vary widely across the world. Although the rates vary widely between countries, it is least common in South and East Asia, more common in Europe, and most common in the United States.[1] Prostate cancer develops most frequently in men over fifty. This cancer can occur only in men, as the prostate is exclusively of the male reproductive tract. It is one of the most common types of cancer in men. However, many men who develop prostate cancer never have symptoms, undergo no therapy, and eventually die of other causes. That is because malignant neoplasms of the prostate are, in most cases, slow-growing, and because most of those affected are over 60. Hence they often die of causes unrelated to the prostate cancer, such as heart/circulatory disease, pneumonia, other unconnected cancers or old age. Many factors, including genetics and diet, have been implicated in the development of prostate cancer.

Prostate cancer is most often discovered by PSA (prostate specific antigen) screening and less commonly by physical examination or by symptoms. There is some current concern about the accuracy of the PSA test and its usefulness. Suspected prostate cancer is typically confirmed by taking a biopsy of the prostate and examining it under a microscope. Further tests, such as CT scans and bone scans, may be performed to determine whether prostate cancer has spread.

Treatment options for prostate cancer with intent to cure are primarily surgery and radiation therapy. Other treatments such as hormonal therapy, chemotherapy, proton therapy, cryosurgery, high intensity focused ultrasound (HIFU) also exist depending on the clinical scenario and desired outcome. Abiraterone Acetate is showing promise in reducing Tumor Size and PSA levels in Aggressive end-stage prostate cancers.[2] The age and underlying health of the man as well as the extent of spread, appearance under the microscope and response of the cancer to initial treatment are important in determining the outcome of the disease. The decision whether or not to treat localized prostate cancer (a tumor that is contained within the prostate) with curative intent is a patient trade-off between the expected beneficial and harmful effects in terms of patient survival and quality of life.

Tuesday, November 18, 2008

.A.L.I.L.A.D.

huhuhuu~
ape itu...??? (?_?)
sumtin dat always disturbs my sleep...
waa everynite appear in my dreams....
evryday running in my mind...
every minute make me fall for her...
huhuhuhu im totally addicted to her....
doctor!!! doctor!!!
help me please...
i hate dis...
i dn wan to hurt her...
i know i cant give her happiness....
coz........
IM GAY
huhuhuhu~~

poem 4 u dear....

How do I say goodbye to someone I never really had?
Why do my tears fall so endlessly for someone who was never really mine?
Why is it I miss someone I was never really with?
And why do I love someone whose love was never really mine?

With you my heart will always stay....
With you my thoughts will be every day....
You remain to be the one that I regret letting get away.....

Why didn't I say what I needed to say?
You are the one I will always use my wishes on....
You are the one I will always wish was never gone.....
I'll constantly wonder what went wrong....
I'll forever think of what I could have did that was never done.
...
A million words would not bring you back...
I know because I tried....
neither would a million tears....

I know because I cried..... -_-

song dedicated 2 u...
click la sini.. huhuu~



OLIDAY LG...??

waa cuti da stat!!!
xtau la nk epi ke x...
sdey pn ada...
apesal la cuti lame sgt ea...
xtau ak nk bwatpe...
kebowingam melanda~~
huhuhuhu....
hope2 plan bbq kitorg jd la...
da lame xhangout ngan mamat macho 2...
windu ak...
apesal la ko p duk sarawak 2...
laki sana cun2 ke...
ak ni ape kurangnye...
huhuhu IM GAY!!

hari ni... ak men futsal...
huhu penat ow...
da xcomey lutut ak...
berparut sudaa....
hooho abes la klu minah 2 tau....
mst potpet2 je mulut dia 2....
hehe tp dia cumel =)
i miss her -_-
ngantok ah...
esok2 la ak buang tebiat tulis mende ni lg...
ehhehe daa~~

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